The Monkeys rocked as always...Loved it...Yesterday I heard John Mayer's coming to Rock in Rio Lisbon! Perfect!
I heard this song from his new album and if I were to post my feelings it wouldn't come out as right as this...
Young and full of running Tell me where is that taking me Just a great figure eight Or a tiny infinity
Love is really nothing But a dream that keeps waking me For all of my trying We still end up dying How can it be
Dont say a word Just come over and lie here with me Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe There I just said it I'm scared you'll forget about me
So young and full of running All the way to the edge of desire Steady my breathing, Silently screaming I have to have you now
Wired and I'm tired Think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis And find me on yours
Dont say a word just come over and lie here with me Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see I want you bad I'll go back on the things I believe There I just said it I'm scared you'll forget about me
Dont say a word just come over and lie here with me Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe There I just said it I'm scared you'll forget about me
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together."
These 3 songs I published show my musical schizophrenia
The fisrt gets me...well as it says frantic...the next one gets me absolutly down and melancholic, but I can't stop playing it, and the last gives me energy and because it's so short I have a tendancy to put on replay.
"I never felt my Mind repose upon anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment - upon no person but you. When you are in the room my thoughts never flyout of window: you always concentrate my whole senses."
Joel: I can’t see anything that I don’t like about you.
Clementine: But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I’ll get bored with you and feel trapped because that’s what happens with me.
So hot out the box Can we pick up the pace Turn it up, heat it up I need to be entertained Push the limit, are you with it, baby, don’t be afraid Imma hurt you real good baby
Let’s go, it’s my show, baby, do what I say Don’t trip off the glitz that I’m gonna display I told ya, Imma hold ya down until you’re amazed Give it to ya til your screamin' my name
No escaping when I start Once I’m in I own your heart There’s no way to ring the alarm So hold on until it’s over
Oh! Do you know what you got into Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do ‘Cause it’s about to get rough for you I’m here For Your Entertainment
Oh! I bet you thought that I was soft and sweet You thought an angel swept you off your feet Well I’m about to turn up the heat I’m here For Your Entertainment
'Sall right You’ll be fine Baby I’m in control Take the pain Take the pleasure I’m the master of both Close your eyes, not your mind Let me into your soul I’m gonna work it ’til your totally blown
No escaping when I start Once I’m in I own your heart There’s no way to ring the alarm So hold on until it’s over
Since it seems everyone has a wishlist...here goes mine (even if it's just a reminder of things I'll buy for myself) (No, I'm not thinking of buying the Eiffel Tower...however a trip there is in mind)
For some it's smoking, drinking, drugs, sex...it comes in many ways.
For me...what gives me that high, that special feeling, the extasy...the sudden smile on my face...
(I could be talking about someone in particular...that also does the trick and is SOOO much better, but let's be more general)
FLIRTING...I Need it! Of course this is the next best thing to actually dating, but that's a whole other story, a much more complicated one that can't be satisfied with a stranger blinking his eye at you!
...But no...it won't do if it's any random person...of course they have to appeal to me...a coke addict doesn't sniff flour...it gives no high!...So what I need is to have someone to flirt with. I may even not want anything more than that with him...but I need it!
Someone to try to impress, someone to make me blush, to make me laugh, to make me giggle inside. I need it and when there is no one around to do it, I get anxious, stressed, my spirit isn't as bubbly, I think to damn much about someone I would like to more than flirt...It basically sucks!
I need some flirting to be 100% sane...so please...for my mental health...where do all you so flirtable guys hang out???
Ohh now that's worth waking up at 6 in the morning! I'm finally going to the gym again...after 4 years!! I squeezed into my schedule, well actually I cut sleeping hours... Yesterday was my incial evaluation, taking measurements, weight, height, heart condition, flexibility...and I was surprised to hear that I was in great condition...and not so surprised to hear him ask me if I had ever done acrobatic gymnastics...yes...I am flexible, but it's innate...And he hasn't seen nothing yet ;)
Well it was a boost for my ego...and now I have to stick to the plan and wake up at indecent hours that drive me crazy..but hey, I guess it's worth it. If I'm ok now, I want to be great!
Right now I feel great about myself! I just sponsered a child from the Dominican Republic!
I recommend visiting the website...it's really simple, just 22$ per month and you'll be providing:
medical care, dental care, education, clothing and many other things. You will be in contact with the child, they send a handwritten welcome letter from your sponsored child (or a family member if your child is unable to write), a new letter from your child about every six months and an annual photo so you can see your child change and grow and many other updates.
So I'm really excited about this! Please checkout the site, even if just to be more informed and to recommend others to check it out!
I'm not about giving chances. Either you drive me Crazy and I WANT you…or nothing's gonna happen. If it seams like i'm playing hard to get….then you should know, it's not a game and you're not getting me!
When it comes to men, I just might be obsessivley picky. One little thing, that could just pass by unseen to someone else...I will pick it up, obsess over it and convince myself I can't tolerate it.
I already knew I like men with big, strong hands (lets add in good men nails...), but recently I recognized that, at least at first sight, small - almost the size of mine - hands are a real turnoff...
I just sincerly find it weird and unfair for those who have them like that, but I can't help it!
But hey, it's no deal breaker, just don't let me see them before you WoW me.
And then in the middle of nowhere I feel your scent...I stop what I'm doing and chase it until it fades away...it always fades..and I'm back to reality. I always break down a little when this happens, as if it's reminding me that you're Not there. It always takes me back and it's a menace to my mental health.
Wendy: I know you're not always perfect. I know you have tons of problems, defects, imperfections... but who doesn't? It's just that I prefer your problems. I'm in love with your imperfections. Your imperfections are just great!
If you pick me a flower, I’ll wear it in my hair. I’ll stash little notes for you where you least expect them. I don’t have many firsts left.. but I’d like someone who I could offer all of my lasts. We’ll make history together. I’ll wait for you even if you’re late – and I won’t complain about it. Kindness to cashiers, valets, waiters and maddeningly slow postal clerks who would try the patience of Gandhi is a must. I will feel safe and most at peace in your arms. When you’re counting aloud, I will try and mess you up. I find you magically delicious. I will let you be right when it doesn’t really matter. I’ll giggle when you show off and I know it’s just for me. I’ll hold your coffee while you drive. I can build a fire without burning the house down. If you wash the car with me – I promise to wear a white t-shirt for you. I‘ll hide around corners and try to scare you in the middle of the night.. of course, I’ll end up scaring myself and you’ll have to calm me down. I can change a flat tire and my own oil. It’s the simple things you do that make me swoon the most. I love it when you sing to me. I’ll make you mickey mouse pancakes. Sleeping in has a whole new meaning now that we’re doing it together. I’ll cover you up and kiss your forehead when you fall asleep watching tv. I won’t swear around your family or make you wear silly sweaters at my family’s during Christmas. I’ll grant you three wishes. I’ll make you laugh. I’ll stare in wonder with you at that hot chick with the great rack. I will marvel at your strength. I’ll take care of you when you’re sick. I give a kick ass massage. I think it’s hot when you come home all dirty from playing or working hard. My heart will skip every time you walk through the door. My kisses will take your breath away – seriously. I’ll giggle if you leave your socks on in bed. My quirks and oddities have been deemed ‘adorable’ and I will love you more everyday for all of yours. I’ll hold you when you need it. I will give you space when you need it. I will let you be you. You’ll sleep better when I’m next to you. I’ll thank you every time you open a door for me. I’ll never give you shit in front of your friends. I won’t ever let you leave for work in the morning without your lunch and a passionate kiss. We can watch your movie first. I’ll clean the house perfectly every time your mom comes by. I like horror movies only when you’re with me and only as long as you hold me close. I don’t litter. I love when you pull me down to sit on your lap. I love it when you lay your head on my chest in bed. I can be ready (shower and all) in half an hour. I’ll look cute as hell in your shirt in the morning. I can balance a checkbook. I can never turn down a challenge. I’ll fit perfectly in your arms. I’ll understand if you get jealous – and do my best to show you that you have no reason. Hand-written love notes will get you laid every time. I can totally keep a secret. I’m pretty damn funny and will do anything to make you laugh. You will always look hot to me in the morning. I think it’s cute when you eat off my plate. When you’re sleeping, I’ll try to stay quiet. I’ll call when I say I will. Treat me like a woamn and I’ll treat you like a man. To clarify: I’m not looking for a savior, a fix-up project, or anything of that sort. I’m looking for a man who quite simply adds something extraordinary and special to my life. And I to him. A fair exchange, an amazing mind, body and soul connection and a place to build something magnificent.
I saw it coming I just thought that you should know I'm feeling better every day I'm only waiting if you stay So don't feel bad Your faith was an illusion And you're as loyal as your faith Will let you be
Your expectation It's not hard to live without I'm feeling better every day And emptiness still leaves a space So don't feel bad You lost all your emotion And may you find all your relations Will keep you free
A careless bird is complicated An empty nest still leaves a space
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my lids and all is born again. (I think I made you up inside my head.)
The stars go waltzing out in blue and red, And arbitrary blackness gallops in: I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane. (I think I made you up inside my head.)
God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade: Exit seraphim and Satan's men: I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I fancied you'd return the way you said, But I grow old and I forget your name. (I think I made you up inside my head.)
I should have loved a thunderbird instead; At least when spring comes they roar back again. I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead. (I think I made you up inside my head.)
Just a few things before I head on my way You are wonderful and good when you want to be You are what I want but not what i need And you are no good for me But you are the cure, oh yeah, and you are the cause of my blues Cure me, cure me....
"I've been looking for my baby I...I..I've been looking for my baby I don't know where you can be
I've searched And I've searched and I've searched
Could you be hiding from me? (don't hide from me)
Just so you know, our past it's all behind us now
I don't wanna know where you've been I don't wanna now who you've been with All i want is for you to come home All I really want, is for you to come home"
"There's something to be said about a glass half full, about knowing when to say when. I think it's more of a floating line, a barometer of need. Of desire. It's entirely up to the individual, and it depends what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless... all we want is more."
I just love it when I find quotes that seem so directed to me that it's scary...most recently I saw this one:
"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
Breakfast at Tiffany's
It always helps to understand myself and to see that I'm not the only one with the same freaky fears...I am afraid of cages...but mostly I'm afraid of being in there alone...and then sometimes...very rarely someone comes along and promises not to cage me but that never really lasts. So now, I say bring on the cages...let's lock ourselves inside!
Um dia a maioria de nós irá separar-se. Sentiremos saudades de todas as conversas jogadas fora, das descobertas que fizemos, dos sonhos que tivemos, dos tantos risos e momentos que partilhamos. Saudades até dos momentos de lágrimas, da angústia, das vésperas dos finais de semana, dos finais de ano, enfim... do companheirismo vivido.
Sempre pensei que as amizades continuassem para sempre. Hoje não tenho mais tanta certeza disso.
Em breve cada um vai para seu lado, seja pelo destino ou por algum desentendimento, segue a sua vida. Talvez continuemos a nos encontrar, quem sabe... nas cartas que trocaremos. Podemos falar ao telefone e dizer algumas tolices... Aí, os dias vão passar, meses... anos... até este contacto se tornar cada vez mais raro. Vamo-nos perder no tempo... Um dia os nossos filhos verão as nossas fotografias e perguntarão: "Quem são aquelas pessoas? "Diremos... que eram nossos amigos e... isso vai doer tanto! -"Foram meus amigos, foi com eles que vivi tantos bons anos da minha vida!" A saudade vai apertar bem dentro do peito. Vai dar vontade de ligar, ouvir aquelas vozes novamente... Quando o nosso grupo estiver incompleto... reunir-nos-emos para um último adeus de um amigo. E, entre lágrima abraçar-nos-emos. Então faremos promessas de nos encontrar mais vezes daquele dia em diante. Por fim, cada um vai para o seu lado para continuar a viver a sua vida isolada do passado. E perder-nos-emos no tempo... Por isso, fica aqui um pedido deste humilde amigo: não deixes que a vida passe em branco, e que pequenas adversidades sejam a causa de grandes tempestades... Eu poderia suportar, embora não sem dor, que tivessem morrido todos os meus amores, mas enlouqueceria se morressem todos os meus amigos!"
Although my imagination is always wondering around and I fantasize all the time, you're actually better than my imagination could conceive and that just makes it hard for me to accept that you're real... So I'll take this as another fantasy and enjoy it before I wake up! See you in my dreams
Today I see, I live less than I could because I don't except less than perfect. In an unperfect world, where no one is perfect...how can I demand perfection in everything and make the the most of it?
I see it's impossible, I must except imperfection now and then...and probably struggle to ignore my gut once in a while.
But come on....I have to keep some of my standards :P
So as of now, I think saying my wishes out loud and being honest and direct is my new way of acting. If it doesn't get you what you want....well then maybe..you weren't suposed to get in the first place! At least people know exactly what you want and some just might help you get there!
So there you go...me changing strategy. It might take a while, but I'll get there. Who knows who will be in the finnish line to welcome me. That's just the beauty of it, not knowing and being surprised.
It might not be easy but sometimes you have to endure before you get your prize, it just makes it extra special and you'll see it when it gets to you.
If you find an oasis in the middle of the desert, won't you apreciate much more than if it where in the middle of the city? I'd say so...
CraZy, Sane, LaZy, Hyper, Fun, Boring, Smart and Stupid...
All depends on who you are and where we're standing.
?Loves?: eating IceCream from the box until my tongue goes numb!,
Chocolate Kisses, BubbleGum, a stack of Pancakes, Hugs, Walking barefoot,
swimming in the ocean, laying down with the sun warming me, Music, dancing,
PartYs, FunnY people, CraZy people, NYC, FRIENDS! .
Today I remembered when we would play Batman and Catwoman on our street...things were simple...and having fun was so easy.
I acknowledge my addiction...
the dreamers 
Tell me where's your hiding place?
