Welcome to LaLa Land

Sunday, October 25, 2009


I perfectly remember being impatient to leave, but suddenly there was something new that made me curious and want to stay a while longer.


I NEED that reason again, I need to discover something new, in someone new.

GIVE me a reason.
P.S.- I'm in my high heels, my feet are killing me, so I'm getting a little impacient.

Saturday, October 24, 2009




My weird desires....

When it comes to men, I just might be obsessivley picky. One little thing, that could just pass by unseen to someone else...I will pick it up, obsess over it and convince myself I can't tolerate it.
I already knew I like men with big, strong hands (lets add in good men nails...), but recently I recognized that, at least at first sight, small - almost the size of mine - hands are a real turnoff...

I just sincerly find it weird and unfair for those who have them like that, but I can't help it!

But hey, it's no deal breaker, just don't let me see them before you WoW me.

Friday, October 23, 2009


So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

Wednesday, October 21, 2009



And then in the middle of nowhere I feel your scent...I stop what I'm doing and chase it until it fades away...it always fades..and I'm back to reality. I always break down a little when this happens, as if it's reminding me that you're Not there. It always takes me back and it's a menace to my mental health.


"Close enough to be your ghost..."

Sunday, October 18, 2009

"Dum lado os bonzinhos
com muito cuidado
a dar beijinhos
com dia aprazado.

Do outro os malvados
a fazer amor
sem dias marcados
com frio ou calor.

Dum lado os bonzinhos
muito estudiosos
dizendo versinhos
em salões ranhosos.

Do outro os malvados
gritando na rua
que os braços estão dados
que a esperança está nua.

Dum lado os bonzinhos
metidos na cama
tomando chazinhos
molhando o pijama.

Do outro os malvados
os que dormem nus
sonhando acordados
com feixes de luz.

Dum lado os bonzinhos
batendo nos tectos
sempre que os vizinhos
são mais incorrectos.

Do outro os malvados
que fazem barulho
despreocupados
ao som do vasculho.

Devo ter por certo
os gostos trocados
detesto os bonzinhos
adoro os malvados."

-Ary dos Santos


The world is full of people whose notion of a satisfactory future is, in fact, a return to the idealized past.
- Robertson Davies

Oh, so true...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Wendy: I know you're not always perfect. I know you have tons of problems, defects, imperfections... but who doesn't? It's just that I prefer your problems. I'm in love with your imperfections. Your imperfections are just great!
Les poupées russes

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Let Go

Monday, October 05, 2009


If you pick me a flower, I’ll wear it in my hair. I’ll stash little notes for you where you least expect them. I don’t have many firsts left.. but I’d like someone who I could offer all of my lasts. We’ll make history together. I’ll wait for you even if you’re late – and I won’t complain about it. Kindness to cashiers, valets, waiters and maddeningly slow postal clerks who would try the patience of Gandhi is a must. I will feel safe and most at peace in your arms. When you’re counting aloud, I will try and mess you up. I find you magically delicious. I will let you be right when it doesn’t really matter. I’ll giggle when you show off and I know it’s just for me. I’ll hold your coffee while you drive. I can build a fire without burning the house down. If you wash the car with me – I promise to wear a white t-shirt for you. I‘ll hide around corners and try to scare you in the middle of the night.. of course, I’ll end up scaring myself and you’ll have to calm me down. I can change a flat tire and my own oil. It’s the simple things you do that make me swoon the most. I love it when you sing to me. I’ll make you mickey mouse pancakes. Sleeping in has a whole new meaning now that we’re doing it together. I’ll cover you up and kiss your forehead when you fall asleep watching tv. I won’t swear around your family or make you wear silly sweaters at my family’s during Christmas. I’ll grant you three wishes. I’ll make you laugh. I’ll stare in wonder with you at that hot chick with the great rack. I will marvel at your strength. I’ll take care of you when you’re sick. I give a kick ass massage. I think it’s hot when you come home all dirty from playing or working hard. My heart will skip every time you walk through the door. My kisses will take your breath away – seriously. I’ll giggle if you leave your socks on in bed. My quirks and oddities have been deemed ‘adorable’ and I will love you more everyday for all of yours. I’ll hold you when you need it. I will give you space when you need it. I will let you be you. You’ll sleep better when I’m next to you. I’ll thank you every time you open a door for me. I’ll never give you shit in front of your friends. I won’t ever let you leave for work in the morning without your lunch and a passionate kiss. We can watch your movie first. I’ll clean the house perfectly every time your mom comes by. I like horror movies only when you’re with me and only as long as you hold me close. I don’t litter. I love when you pull me down to sit on your lap. I love it when you lay your head on my chest in bed. I can be ready (shower and all) in half an hour. I’ll look cute as hell in your shirt in the morning. I can balance a checkbook. I can never turn down a challenge. I’ll fit perfectly in your arms. I’ll understand if you get jealous – and do my best to show you that you have no reason. Hand-written love notes will get you laid every time. I can totally keep a secret. I’m pretty damn funny and will do anything to make you laugh. You will always look hot to me in the morning. I think it’s cute when you eat off my plate. When you’re sleeping, I’ll try to stay quiet. I’ll call when I say I will. Treat me like a woamn and I’ll treat you like a man. To clarify: I’m not looking for a savior, a fix-up project, or anything of that sort. I’m looking for a man who quite simply adds something extraordinary and special to my life. And I to him. A fair exchange, an amazing mind, body and soul connection and a place to build something magnificent.