"Morde-me com o querer-me que tens nos olhos
Despe-te em sonho ante o sonhares-me vendo-te,
Dá-te vária, dá sonhos de ti-própria aos molhos
Ao teu pensar-me querendo-te...
Desfolha sonhos teus de dando-te variamente,
Ó perversa, sobre o êxtase da atenção
Que tu em sonhos dás-me... E o teu sonho de mim é quente
No teu olhar absorto ou em abstracção...
Possue-me-te, seja eu em ti meu spasmo e um rocio
De voluptuosos eus na tua coroa de rainha...
Meu amor será o sair de mim do teu ocio
E eu nunca serei teu, ó apenas-minha?" Fernando Pessoa
From Le Love Why can’t I stop thinking about you? It was such a mistake. All of it… an all-consuming error in judgment that had me captivated and mesmerized by the situation. A good girl to the core, this was far beyond the everyday workings of such a responsible and trustworthy person like myself. Would it be corny to say, “you had me at hello”? - Because you did. I was drawn to you like a drug and from the first night that we spent together I was hooked. You were the perfect escape and release from the mundane aspects of reality. I would daydream about you and smile when I saw your name flash up on my phone; I would go back to the park where we met hoping to see you. It started out so innocent, the standard steps of a growing romance but then you broke my heart and made me become the other woman and in doing so you forced me to defy all the written rules of sisterhood and common decency. With this new information I tried to stay away from you and to be mature about what had happened and ignore the fact that you had used me, the fact that you had taken advantage of my naivety and my openness. But you were everywhere I looked, everywhere I went and you would reel me back in with empty promises and sweet talkings. You would tell me how beautiful I was and how you thought I was one of the most fascinating people you had ever met and so we went round in pointless and painful circles. You would hurt me and I would let you. You had even somehow let me believe that this was my idea and you were going along for the ride. To this day I still don’t know if you were right. Was it my fault? Could I have done more to prevent this? I shall spend years contemplating this. But because of you, I have grown – you took away my innocence and left me damaged. Things have been over for years, but you still obtain such a large space in my thoughts and I need closure, a concluding end to this chapter in my life that will always make me feel shame. So this is it. This is me saying goodbye to you, and that I will soon be the person I was once again. This is also me saying sorry, sorry that I let you hurt me, it wont happen again. Lucy
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
It's hard to say goodbye, when you don't have to but you really should
I got a razor sharp mind
That wants to cut you down
A little place in mind
Maybe I could bed you down
Pony up we got a ways to go
Set me up my friend
I'm running low
Hearing the new album on playback. The Kings always addict me.
Friday, December 03, 2010
That time of the year...
2 weeks of studying and trying to keep warm
Friday, November 19, 2010
Mark Sloan to Callie: You might need a little sexual palate cleanser
Bailey: Sexual sorbet?? Ahaha I Love it!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Scientifically speaking, intense pleasure does dull the other senses
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love Like I'm the only one who knows your heart Only girl in the world...
Blaire: What are you still doing here, Chuck? I threw you out hours ago.
Chuck: I wanted to let you know the treaty is over.
Blair: Fine with me. This pretense of civility… was exhausting.
Chuck: Being amicable isn’t in our blood. I’ve realized we’re not friends. Friends have to like each other. And after what happened tonight, I could never like you —
Blair: I could never like you either.
(Takes one very loud step forward. Cont’d)
In fact, I hate you.
Chuck: I’ve never hated anyone more.
Blair: Every nerve ending in my body is electrified. By hatred.
Chuck: There is a fiery pit of hate burning inside me, ready to explode.
(Steps forward.)
Blair: So, it’s settled then.
Chuck: We’re settled.
Stacy: "Our relationship is like an addiction. It's— like—" House: "Really good drugs?" Stacy: "No, it's like— vindaloo curry." House: "Ok, sure—" Stacy: "Really, really hot Indian curry they make with red chilli peppers." House: "I know what it is! Didn't think it was addictive." Stacy:"You're abrasive and annoying and come on way too strong, like... vindaloo curry. When you're crazy about curry, that's fine but no matter how much you love curry, you have too much of it, it takes the roof of your mouth off. And then you never want to see curry for a really, really long time but you wake up one day and you think... god I really miss curry. You're a jerk.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
"What I am to you is not what you mean to me"
Damien Rice - Volcano
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Did you seriously ask that? Girl...another stupid ass question like that and I'll SERIOUSLY lose my Zen.
I can't deal with stupid, this just won't do.
Buddha, God, Zeus...give me the patience!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
"No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes. It’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends- they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything- they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them- actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about."
Marilyn Monroe
Monday, September 13, 2010
Yeah...thanks for the heads-up... -.-'
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
"Happiness isn't good enough for me! I demand Euphoria!!"
-Calvin
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
True Blood
"It ain't possible to live unless you crossin' somebody's line"
22 Started off with a cocktail birthday cake...and so far so good!
Let's see how it ends, 5 more days of this 22nd year!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Ab-so-fucking-lutely ecstatic! New chapter in my life!
Masters degree...here I go!
Monday, July 19, 2010
I can't truthfully say I miss you, because the one I miss has been so long gone I can hardly remember
You took his place without warning, he left with no goodbyes
Now there you are, the cold hearted one that will never make me feel the way he did but will never let me forget he once existed...
but if you could come back, you would make my day
Thursday, July 15, 2010
In NUMB mode waiting for answers
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Now, every time you try to put me down, I see how wrong you are and just love myself even more. With you it's just never enough and it probably never will be. Good luck with that...I'll be here loving myself!
Saturday, July 03, 2010
They say you must walk the desert to fully appreciate an Oasis.
...Well I've been walking...how much longer??
Thursday, June 24, 2010
After tonight, there'll be no coming home soon No tears of regret, no smell of her perfume No more dancing feet, to the beats that go boom While I watch the sunrise all alone in my room Tonight there'll be no pouring rain No eyes wide shut to your never ending game After tonight there'll be no me and you No distant memories past for me to hold on to See everybody's working to hold on to what they know So I guess I kept belive in my tonight will never go Some spend a lifetime searchin trying to figure out When hell stops and heaven begins How soon is now?
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Must see movie: 500 Days of Summer
Makes you laugh, makes you cry, it's not your typical love story and it has a great soundtrack!
"This is not a love story. This is a story about love."